My name is Cindy and im from Quebec, Canada. I met my narc march 2022, after a few weeks he slowly changed… i didnt know back then anything about narcissist. But i can assure you it was a hell of a year with him: manipulation, lies, constant fights, walking on eggshell, requesting money, verbal abuse, infidelity, dismissing my needs & emotions, physical abuse, he is an addidct, made me take all kinds of drugs, now i have a problem with it , he took at least 80-90 000$ from me, he brought me so down that i did 3 suicidal attempts in 6 months and almost “succeed” at killing myself dec 23rd when the paramedics had to resucitate me in extremis, etc etc… till i finaly broke up in march this yr…. i didnt do the no contact thing back then .
So i kept contact with him letting him bringing me back slowly… but recently i found out by consulting a psychologist that he is a pervert narcissic man. I had never thought of that before my therapist told me that’s what he is and that i am the perfect victim for these people according to my personality and traits…. what a shock! I started to educate myself on the subject and yes indeed he is!!! So yesterday i started the no contact rule, erased his number from my phones and made it clear to him that i dont want to hear from him or see him ever again. He said he would respect that… but i doubt he will… i am lucky tho cause i am surronded by loving and caring people around me… and i asked the right people for help : drug therapists and psychologist…. is it possible that i am slowly recovering from a Post traumatic shock?
Also I am so terrified i will go back to him! That he will succeed and hurt me again. This can’t happen! But i still feel some pity, tenderness and care for him even after all he did unbelievable!!! So to all of you who had to deal or still dealing with a narcissit perv, keep faith! Better days are ahead i am sure … but when?