Hi there, my English may be not perfect, I’m French moved in USA .. I followed my husband, I feel so empty for a while now . I had a good life full of friends and I was an happy person . I’m sure he’s an narcissist I feel I’m emotional abused but he always says I am the problem, I can’t share my emotions, feelings or what I would like to do if it concerns a job .. he doesn’t want to have any friend and he’s obsessed by money and power, thinks he’s better than everyone .. we have a little boy and I feel he’s the extension of himself ! Im very confused cause when something happens, where he’s rude he thinks it’s ok and doesn’t understand why I feel so down he always say you have to toughen up, life is hard .. and then he become very nice and sweet so it’s very confusing, I know deep inside me it’s not normal but I can’t change his mind .. so each time I’m thinking it’s gonna be ok and then again .. he says it’s because of me ! I don’t know I just need to share with someone cause it’s really difficult, I have no family and friends here .. i feel I tried my best but apparently no . He tells me I don’t treat him like a man and so many différents words .. i would like to go seeing a therapist unfortunately I don’t have money to afford this, I feel a loser not fair, sometimes I feel I’m crazy ! Thanks to all !